emergency room, doner site by Atomograd, literature
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emergency room, doner site
skin melting off his skull, you watched them peel away flesh bitter, brittle, broken flayed open, split apart, splinted back together put him under, intubate, we must not resuscitate. innoculus innoculations embrace his marrow-laced bones, plasma-laden blood so frail and volatile and oh, you, with your aching heart opiate-addicted to breaking, your love was just another foreign object
garden overgrown, undertaken by Atomograd, literature
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garden overgrown, undertaken
live in a house that makes you pantomime home in the liquid gaze of night live in a house cradled by skeletal hands, boney fingers shuttering windows - a house with no mouth filled to the brim with gnashing teeth live in a house you can't stand to breathe in, atmosphering air poisonous venomous to breathe in die in a home to be buried beneath floorboards split sideways by blossoms be lain to rest under the foundation, over the rocks, and watch with dry eyes the rain trickle down through the cracks in the floor live in a home whose name rhymes with grave and know yourself by the inscription on the doorplate above
lying as an answer to questions made eternal by Atomograd, literature
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lying as an answer to questions made eternal
words not written to be read aloud whisper from the centrefolds your four-page four-star four-times best seller told me everything. press printed pages on scrap-cycled runoff murmur every recycled phrase, reused, rethought, repurposed ideals; in your originality you paint yourself a copycat killer, inspiration hung up to dry, salvaged from the graves of wordsmithing, worldbuilding ancestors you-- eight years ago you visited a grave. a tombstone with your name, smooth under rough fingers rough under smooth caresses, curious, mundane apathetic in your agony and oh, so average in your mourning. exhuming long lost media, cartoon storyboards devoured by time, decayed by circumstance animatronic servos, vhs tapes re-re-re-re-- recorded over [ a man falls seventy eight feet and a taunt steel cable breaks his fall. men he loved, men who loved him, will later wrestle in his blood. over the edge and over again, never to be destroyed, viewed or duplicated. in living colour, a woman loads
you pluck harpsichord heartstrings right from my chest, mattress stitch them along heartlines on my palms lay your cheek in my grip and listen to my palpitation pulse, drag your tongue 'cross my hand and taste the staccato beat oozing from my connective tissues - bloody, coagulating - your touch envenoming suture my chest closed with my own sinews, and hope hope the wound closes again
please, i begged, doesn't anyone have a phone? i have to get my friend to the hospital, i wept, i sobbed over the corpse already gripped by rigor mortis it took hours to find her - found him on the side of the highway, had to roll him up the hill, he said she's a woman, i wanted to wail, please, take us to the emergency room but the mall shopkeep only tried to bind her curled fingers tighter with elastic hairties, she clasped her hands around mine, curled them around the fevered fingers of the cadaver we have to get her to the hospital
urban exploring in graves abandoned by Atomograd, literature
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urban exploring in graves abandoned
bury me alive, alone, in a casket built for two [ it's like he's dead- ] bury me, heart beating, lungs breathing lay me to rest with a racing mind [ -but he's not- ] eyes filmy, blank blind in the dark without your light close the lid, close the lid. [ - i am, ] look upon me as i putrefy before your eyes liquefy, where i stand my strength recedes, tendons strain, snap too fatigued to walk, to crawl [ again. ]
sleep atop an empty grave by Atomograd, literature
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sleep atop an empty grave
you are an aching void a gaping wound, a jagged hole in my chest; your absence has left me contused, abrased, eviscerated this lesion, it festers, it grows, decays - gangrenous, necrosis - won't you return to balm this sepsis, to soothe my aches and pains? staunch my bleeds, my sluggish ooze of putrid flesh and bone i try to swallow the bile, grief pooling in the hollow of my throat - and my disembodied heart, oh, it laps, it laps at loss.
i roused on the first floor
of a forty story highrise;
sunrise dappling pastel sheets,
filtered through bamboo blinds
fell asleep to fingertips
dozing, claw traced patterns
a glint of fang in the sheer moonlight
snarls waning at my throat
"you're gone"
built of bone, gristle, malice
he was made eternal
but i earn access
to time ad nauseam
what use have i
for a when without him?
oh, and i've seen it -
consumed by chaos, burned away
malpracticed skills of the chronic ills by Atomograd, literature
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malpracticed skills of the chronic ills
bruised fingertips on inflammed hips
glance around in a daze, a mid-flare haze
on crumpling golden glow knees
snap/crackle/pop -
lock(ed) jaw grinding cereal
with every word
standing sounds like velcro,
like snap-clasps,
and your trap shuts with a click
hear your restless heart tickticktick -
electrode stickers stick
glue clinging
to pinpricks
capillaries burst and you're numb,
tingling as the nerves tangle
the wires cross
your legs fell asleep across the street
radioactive activity
the radiologist knows you by gait
by needle trait
crossing the parking lot as your veins give way-
seven, eleven vials
dizzy days
hitting up the 7-11
on ho